Day 7

He called for a 'cool' off... to have some time for himself alone, to think, to find himself... I agreed... I dont know when will he come back- days could be turn to weeks, weeks could be turn to months, months could be turn to years.... I don't know... It does not matter to me now... I have already cast my heart away from this relationship.

Let fate decide the future for us then... I won't know when u come back I will be able to accept you back to my life... even if I still love you, I wont have the confident nor believe in our relationship any more. I will be too afraid... what if there will be another time you tell me again you lost yourself... what would I do again? I really don't know... let fate decide...

As I sat here writing this entry... my heart slowly fade away... I wish so much that you could include me in your internal struggle... let me be around to support you... yet you have cast me aside... alone... what about me... have you thought of me... my feeling... what you & have I have fight so hard for... because of this... have let it go to waste... I think I will not continue to date the time you will come back... writing this brings too much pain... I shall continue with my life... Goodbye my love...